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I've fallen in love with this term "meta", as discovered from an online game I was playing.

TL:DR- [Most Effective Tactic Available] = "[Meta-gaming]" is any strategy, action or method used in a game which transcends a prescribed ruleset, uses external factors to affect the game, or goes beyond the supposed limits or environment set by the game.

I like to view it as the root: Most people hack away at the leaves to no effect, but to he who strikes the root...


What are truly meta / root concepts that the others stem from? @Helen uses this concept too: the minerals for example are meta, because hormones and everything else flows down stream of them.

But in life what is truly meta? I keep meditating every day, and coming back to this concept of belief.

At a certain point, logic begins to fail. Look at us now with our scientific theories, what created all of this? The big bang? What created that? There are no scientific answers to that question, only beliefs and the realm of beliefs. Get in touch with it. Logic will only take you so far.

Belief is the meta. Everything we hear and are told by society, that is mostly just belief. "Money is valuable" when it boils down to it, is just a belief. Most beliefs are simply cultural narratives.

The true power of belief is when you turn it inwards to yourself though: you don't have to believe the cultural narrative. If culture tells you you're shit, fuck that, believe you're great. How do you generate belief like this? I guess you have to start somewhere. What do you see as great? Become it. Try to become it. Fail. Try again, fail again. No matter, try again, fail again, fail better. Each time, you start to believe. More and more. Incremental progress. This is how true progress is always built. This is true worth, true meaning. The greatest human psychology to be in is a state of flow, and a state of flow is when you are challenged but capably incrementally working towards a goal.


Shatter limitations. Begin to believe.
 

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I've sent another hair test off a few weeks ago. Got a haircut yesterday, no hair loss for probably over a year now, I think it looks thicker even.

I'm starting a new kickass job in feb.

The second half of the year after the redpill stuff I started dating pretty hard, probably went on 40 days or so. Probably fucked 10 of them. No relationship stuff, just messing around. Fuck. It feels good knowing I can do this. And also understanding myself better, and women.

I started seeing this hot AF Brazilian girl lately too. The sex is epic.

Pretty happy overall with how i've bounced back from this shitty start to the year:

Small update...

Struggling a bit emotionally with this breakup. I don't know - maybe i'm not social enough? It feels whenever i'm alone I get super depressed. Just thinking about life and how fucked up this is. I find myself going to dark places saying things like "life just gets harder as you get older, its all down hill from here, i'm just more and more broken from all this shit".

Its so sad, the girl i was with for 6 years (i asked her to marry me late last year and she said yes) - i dont know, i thought we were a good match. We got on well, i really enjoyed her company. We had our flaws, but don't we all? I don't have very good empathy and maybe i'm a bit too introverted and not motivated enough in life. She is mostly an emotional roller coaster. I guess thats the problem, she wanted to break up (seemingly out of the blue), then we got back together and everything was great again, then it happened again! But this third time I moved out, it just hurts so much being messed around like that. Its like i don't know what it is - is it just her emotional roller coaster, where i'm the target this time?

I think that was the problem, we're quite different people, so its almost impossile to understand her. Maybe i should just find someone more like me. It'll probably be more boring, but maybe thats OK. I feel like now, she hasn't apologised and doesn't want to get back together as far as i know. We're not speaking much. Theres been a lot of love lost. If this is how its going to be, no way will it ever work out.

Now i feel super alone in life.

They say "those that stay together, don't need to be together". If i start dating again now i feel like... On one hand, it'll get me socialising. It might help me get over my ex. It'll probably make me happier (at least in the moment). But on the other hand, am i just doing it because i feel like i NEED to be with someone?

And i feel like i don't know what to say or how to date, i'm just a boring person now obsessed with

Its all growth, dawg. Everybody just hang in there AND START TO BELIEVE.
 
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Another fukkboi got created. Very proud of you xD. If you like that epic stuff try some Viking music to it too ahah
An experience yesterday and this post put me on fire, great read man. Love it!
Highly recommend RSD Tyler (lifewise) RSD Julien(crazy straightforward) and Todd V. (logical) it's all on yt for free. These guys literally allowed me to get my life into my own hands and make myself my 20's extremely awesome. While without all that I'd be just a sad broken-hearted pretty boy LOL.
 
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good sheeit
 

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Okay the results from the latest HTMA are back:



In this round I took all the recommended TEI supps, which was quite a lot, for 3 months. I also added some essential amino acids in the last month.

Not much of a huge change, seems like everything got slightly better. I think actually maybe i didn't take a good hair sample (not close enough to the root) this time. My ratios are almost perfect which is great! The relative levels are still low, but I think they will improve.
 
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Nice changes. Looks good. Ratios are great.
I see your iron went up, but looking at your latest hairtest, you did not take any supplemental iron right?

Your latest supps were some calcium and also some copper.
You often talked about calcium/magnesium ratio. So how did you feel doing the calcium etc ?
 

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Nice changes. Looks good. Ratios are great.
I see your iron went up, but looking at your latest hairtest, you did not take any supplemental iron right?

Your latest supps were some calcium and also some copper.
You often talked about calcium/magnesium ratio. So how did you feel doing the calcium etc ?
Mostly fine, I think because it wasnt just calcium but also lots of b6 which retains magnesium.

If I ever feel like im calcifying, a sauna session seems to make everything good again.

But you can see from my ca to mg ratio being pretty optimized, I dont have that issue. When I was losing hair my ca to mg ratio was off the chart, currently it's at a near perfect 7.30
 
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Oh yeah, I should also mention during this HTMA I went to the sauna usually 3x a week, which is a possible explanation as to why my toxic metals are insanely low.
 
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What was your hairloss? Male pattern baldness or shedding or overall?
I noticed that almost everybody who has higher Mag to Ca ratio has no hairloss issues. What I mean that the ones I saw from people who come here with issues, but no hairloss tend to always have Mag > Ca.
And if it was MPB, did your hair thicken up? Regrow even?

And to the post you made awhile before, my main goal since New Year is to get into a flow state like behaviour day in day out. Goal is to be in that by March.
 

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Nice changes. Looks good. Ratios are great.
I see your iron went up, but looking at your latest hairtest, you did not take any supplemental iron right?

Your latest supps were some calcium and also some copper.
You often talked about calcium/magnesium ratio. So how did you feel doing the calcium etc ?
Oh and in answer to your first question, no I didnt take iron
 

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What was your hairloss? Male pattern baldness or shedding or overall?
I noticed that almost everybody who has higher Mag to Ca ratio has no hairloss issues. What I mean that the ones I saw from people who come here with issues, but no hairloss tend to always have Mag > Ca.
And if it was MPB, did your hair thicken up? Regrow even?

And to the post you made awhile before, my main goal since New Year is to get into a flow state like behaviour day in day out. Goal is to be in that by March.
It's a bit of both: thinning and receded hairline (like an M shape)


I think fast oxi causes thinning, so my issue was I spent a few years I'd imagine as a fast oxi with higher ca to mg.

No regrowth as far as I can tell
 

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probably cause u pretty much reached the end of ur hair loss journey ?
Dude.. I hated my hair for 15years cuz it was too thick. I was a nw0 aswell once. And I never shed, or had more than 2-3hairs in my hands after pulling like an idiot. My roommate started balding around the same time like me. He shed like a dog. Now 10 years later we're almost in the same balding state. It's certainly interesting.
 

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I emailed Greg the b12 oil guy my hair test and he said

"You are Selenium and Molybdenum deficient, more Mo than Se, which is marginal."
 

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I emailed Greg the b12 oil guy my hair test and he said

"You are Selenium and Molybdenum deficient, more Mo than Se, which is marginal."
After accutane I think getting molybdenum way up in range is probably critical to getting better.
 

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Alright got 3 months worth of supplements and pumping them again for another cycle.

My diet is looking like: protein museli bars for breakfast, either bahmi or chicken / veggies stirfry for lunch (with lots of spice mix, like turmeric etc for anti-inflammation), dinner is usually the stirfry too (or I eat out - no strictness really i just try to avoid too much dairy and going too hard on carbs), and post dinner i have a almond milk/berry/mango smoothie with added essential amino acids and sometimes spirulina powder.

Generally feeling pretty good.

I started a new job finally in the past month as a software developer (dunno if you guys remember but I was feeling pretty down and out having lost my job and relationship about 8 months ago - just retrained and landed a new job!) so feeling super positive about that.

Moving house again in 2 weeks to be closer to work so I can walk.

Gonna start getting more physically active, might join a gym or something like that.
Dating life is going well - have a "friends with benefits" thing going on, and going on dates with other girls too. Found one last week whoose also into to sauna and tennis so that could be fun!
Every weekend morning i'm studying and learning more about relevant this new profession i'm in.
Playing more tennis again, i'm on an undefeated streak for 3+ months now!! Yesterday i won 6-4 0-6 10-8. So many close matches, but I just can't seem to lose. I think my focus and self belief is super high now as a result of my efforts lately - when i find myself in a pickle, i can just dig deeper.

Generally things are looking up :D :D

Still got some issues though, i'm getting pimples again still (ever since i did 4 liver flushes awhile ago @Orion ) but its not so bad - don't plan on doing any more liver flushes tho!! My skin is also more oily since this too. I must have flushed some of the accutane out. Eyes are still dry, but its not so bad either that I can't work. I think maybe i've hit a decent balance between eye health and acne from those liver flushes. Generally my energy is pretty good. I don't drink coffee but I have about 4 apples a day, they seem to keep my energy up. Sometimes i'll have a coke zero or something in the afternoon if I need it.

Can't complain really, life is good. I'm gonna stay focused and keep a decent diet and keep pumping these hair test rounds still until I've done at least 2 - 4 years worth though, just to make sure. I remember where i've come from, and how shit life was when I was just super fatigued and sick all the time. This world is cruel and doesn't care for weak men! Having energy to take on life is the meta.

I also just want to balance my hair test for the sake of completion. My ratios are pretty balanced now, but the absolute figures aren't.
 
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