Hello Everyone,
Most of you regulars on this site may know me by now, but I'd like to introduce myself to the rest of you all just joining this site and welcome you. You found the right place whoever you are and I'm telling you right now- I'm 99.9999% sure you can get better from what you are experiencing whether its going to be easy for you or not.
I could tell you my story, but its a long one. I get a lot of questions via PM and love helping people I must admit. But its getting a bit much and I think my explanations can be all made right here in one place. I'd like to simplify things for people in this thread here based on my thoughts, experiences, what I've learned from others (especially our leader here on this site @gbolduev ), and overall just a self-education of the problems we've been presented with our health issues.
Quite briefly about me- I got hit with PFS in mid-December 2016 3 months after turning 28 years old and 20 days or so after a brief 14 day Finasteride trial. This was after a 5 or so year journey dealing with chronic fatigue issues that I thought I had fixed with Hormone Replacement Therapy. I then spent 7 months horribly ill living at my parents house without the ability to live much of a life at all. The severity of my neurological issues during that time period cannot truly be described along with the complete impotence I experienced. If you want to learn more about my story until this past October 2017- you can read the beginning of my log linked below right here . Hacking PFS & CFS: Bruschi's Log
I essentially can say I've been through the bulk of what we do on this site- the treatments we've been presented I've worked with the majority of these on myself beginning even before this site existed. It's actually a pretty cool story how I got here- after a diagnosis last June of a severe mycoplasma infection (Lyme-type pathogen based infection) I began a natural health healing regime in August. I did some heavy reading around the internet for months on end prior to this during the peak of my illness and continued to do so.
With my plan, I really put the severe neuro issues away in about 6 weeks. I still had major issues, but I was able to stop the antidepressant mirtazapine (my brain literally required this before or I could not stay alive- it was that bad) I was using at the time and start going at this naturally. Then I notice @gbolduev preaching to guys like @TubZy and @freeflow over on the Ray Peat forum about how he could heal people from PFS. I thought this was lunacy, but after a couple weeks I finally reached out to freeflow and did some "gbolduev googling" reading all of his posts on other forums in years past.
Well- the dude used a lot of what I had followed to help me get to the point I was at. I finally started to understand his reasoning a bit the further I learned about his PFS theories. And man- I was eating plant based at the time, I was very glad that he wanted us to include a lot of seafood in our diets. That may have been the final straw that made me go all in on his stuff. I love seafood!
I noticed that he liked probiotic enemas with my research. So on that night- my 29th birthday Sept 26th, 2017 I swallowed some probiotics anally for the very first time and then would begin my hackstasis trek.
7 months later- here I am living a pretty damn good life. Now well functional sexually I can say- while not recovered in that aspect, the ability to have intercourse and have pleasure doing so is not a problem at. My dick was pretty much rubber before this. Women excite me again very much- its funny they actually look different to me now in such a good way. My fatigue is MAJORLY improved unless a substance is put in play that can disrupt it, my digestion has been doing great since, and so on.
The progress I've made overall has been substantial, but what I've learned about myself and healing techniques in this time period has gone even further. What I've learned along with what I've experienced has given me the confidence to say "I am definitely going to heal fully from this."
Most importantly, while I am not content, I am happy. I woke up one morning say 2 weeks after my beloved New England Patriots lost in the Super Bowl in February and just freaked out waking up all my roommates that morning annoying the heck out of them "I'm GAYYYYYYYY" I screamed from the top of my lungs. I said this not because I'm a homosexual, I said it because I just wanted to find a way to show everyone I was happy which "Gay" does indeed mean according to the English dictionary.
Being so depressed and down for so long there and finally acknowledging the fact that I am a happy human being- I had to express it in a different way I guess. My roommates girlfriend, "He's sleeping, what are you doing, shut up!" She just didn't get how much I had to be happy about.
A week or so later feeling on top of the world skiing where my legs hadn't felt this strong for over a decade, I fell and got my testicles tangled. A "testicular torsion" requiring emergency surgery that night. Its taken all 8 weeks to mend these completely, but finally I went for my first run yesterday and am back on track with recovery life. I did some experimenting and stayed relatively healthy during these 8 weeks, but they were definitely a set back for me including 12 lbs gained to my 5'8 now 182 lb frame. For me its time to build from where I left off from.
Now I'm sure that I'll probably get called out at some point for being sexist with what I write above, but I'm not at all in the slightest bit. I'm happy, I love life- man wow what life feels like when I get the flashes of normalcy, when I get the experiences that I lacked for so long. I love all races, kinds, I love being here around all human beings- a species I was legitimately scared to spend time around when I was at my worst for those 7 months. I was so anxious I couldn't look a human in the eye.
Admittedly, life can still be tough at times with symptoms that show while experimenting but they are nowhere near the same galaxy of what I went through last year. During the hard, all I have to do is take a deep breath and think about where I once was and where I am now. It's so damn cool.
I just wrote a bit more above than I would've liked to about myself. I don't want this thread to be about me- I want this thread to be about this website, what we are trying to do here, what happened to us, how you can get better, why you can get better, and above all things just give you all a peace of mind that you CAN get better. I want to do this in layman terms so you can understand this. It can get confusing on this site undoubtedly and that's the case with any type of health website.
It can be hard finding the right plan for you. EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT. That is the largest lesson you may learn on this site. Some things will work for some people, others will work for others. It all depends on your symptoms, oxidation type, mineral content, drug that caused your illness, toxicities, pathogens, and so on. And its not going to be one thing that cures you- it's going to be a collection over TIME that must be strategically used to your advantage. I hope that I can help people get a better understanding of what the best routes to take are for their given situation.
For instance, when I started my holistic healing in August I was able to Skype with a PFS recovery story from Propeciahelp by the name "Braziliandude." I kept asking about individual things he tried over his 4-5 years of PFS recovery and said to me "Its not going to be one thing. Its going to be a collection of things that you really have to figure out." I wanted him to be wrong. I didn't want there to be any pressure on me to make the right decisions. I already had made a horrible one by taking finasteride and now my own decisions are going to reflect whether or not I can get my life back?
Well, the decisions started getting easier for me once this forum came into fruition. And I hope that I can help you make the correct decisions with my work here like I have over these last 7 months (barring that ski jump I attempted LOL.) Admittedly, I have made some other wrong decisions that I would take back if I could but I can't. I do not dwell on these decisions. I do not look back. NEVER LOOK BACK. But I have learned from them.
From here, I'll be following up with some posts I already have in mind such as "My influences on the web/recovery stories to read", "What happened to us? In layman's terms", "My RIFE machine journey", "Manual Pathogen Attacks", and several more ideas. If you have an idea that you'd like to see me tackle to the best of my ability- feel free to shoot me a PM or comment here.
To conclude this- I know many of you are at wits end with your problems and some have been sick for close to a decade or even longer. Just believe- just get up and start doing, start believing. Look at @Admiral - the dude has had PFS for over a decade and just fasted for 21 days. Find something deep inside of you to make this your journey in getting your life back. Find that motivation and just do it.
I'd say I'm only 60% there and man its worth. Sooo worth it. After a 7 year health journey on my own, I can only imagine what 100% feels like and how good that day will be. At 60%, my life is good, but I want it all. I can't wait to get there and you should feel the same exact way. Let's keep on going!
Most of you regulars on this site may know me by now, but I'd like to introduce myself to the rest of you all just joining this site and welcome you. You found the right place whoever you are and I'm telling you right now- I'm 99.9999% sure you can get better from what you are experiencing whether its going to be easy for you or not.
I could tell you my story, but its a long one. I get a lot of questions via PM and love helping people I must admit. But its getting a bit much and I think my explanations can be all made right here in one place. I'd like to simplify things for people in this thread here based on my thoughts, experiences, what I've learned from others (especially our leader here on this site @gbolduev ), and overall just a self-education of the problems we've been presented with our health issues.
Quite briefly about me- I got hit with PFS in mid-December 2016 3 months after turning 28 years old and 20 days or so after a brief 14 day Finasteride trial. This was after a 5 or so year journey dealing with chronic fatigue issues that I thought I had fixed with Hormone Replacement Therapy. I then spent 7 months horribly ill living at my parents house without the ability to live much of a life at all. The severity of my neurological issues during that time period cannot truly be described along with the complete impotence I experienced. If you want to learn more about my story until this past October 2017- you can read the beginning of my log linked below right here . Hacking PFS & CFS: Bruschi's Log
I essentially can say I've been through the bulk of what we do on this site- the treatments we've been presented I've worked with the majority of these on myself beginning even before this site existed. It's actually a pretty cool story how I got here- after a diagnosis last June of a severe mycoplasma infection (Lyme-type pathogen based infection) I began a natural health healing regime in August. I did some heavy reading around the internet for months on end prior to this during the peak of my illness and continued to do so.
With my plan, I really put the severe neuro issues away in about 6 weeks. I still had major issues, but I was able to stop the antidepressant mirtazapine (my brain literally required this before or I could not stay alive- it was that bad) I was using at the time and start going at this naturally. Then I notice @gbolduev preaching to guys like @TubZy and @freeflow over on the Ray Peat forum about how he could heal people from PFS. I thought this was lunacy, but after a couple weeks I finally reached out to freeflow and did some "gbolduev googling" reading all of his posts on other forums in years past.
Well- the dude used a lot of what I had followed to help me get to the point I was at. I finally started to understand his reasoning a bit the further I learned about his PFS theories. And man- I was eating plant based at the time, I was very glad that he wanted us to include a lot of seafood in our diets. That may have been the final straw that made me go all in on his stuff. I love seafood!
I noticed that he liked probiotic enemas with my research. So on that night- my 29th birthday Sept 26th, 2017 I swallowed some probiotics anally for the very first time and then would begin my hackstasis trek.
7 months later- here I am living a pretty damn good life. Now well functional sexually I can say- while not recovered in that aspect, the ability to have intercourse and have pleasure doing so is not a problem at. My dick was pretty much rubber before this. Women excite me again very much- its funny they actually look different to me now in such a good way. My fatigue is MAJORLY improved unless a substance is put in play that can disrupt it, my digestion has been doing great since, and so on.
The progress I've made overall has been substantial, but what I've learned about myself and healing techniques in this time period has gone even further. What I've learned along with what I've experienced has given me the confidence to say "I am definitely going to heal fully from this."
Most importantly, while I am not content, I am happy. I woke up one morning say 2 weeks after my beloved New England Patriots lost in the Super Bowl in February and just freaked out waking up all my roommates that morning annoying the heck out of them "I'm GAYYYYYYYY" I screamed from the top of my lungs. I said this not because I'm a homosexual, I said it because I just wanted to find a way to show everyone I was happy which "Gay" does indeed mean according to the English dictionary.
Being so depressed and down for so long there and finally acknowledging the fact that I am a happy human being- I had to express it in a different way I guess. My roommates girlfriend, "He's sleeping, what are you doing, shut up!" She just didn't get how much I had to be happy about.
A week or so later feeling on top of the world skiing where my legs hadn't felt this strong for over a decade, I fell and got my testicles tangled. A "testicular torsion" requiring emergency surgery that night. Its taken all 8 weeks to mend these completely, but finally I went for my first run yesterday and am back on track with recovery life. I did some experimenting and stayed relatively healthy during these 8 weeks, but they were definitely a set back for me including 12 lbs gained to my 5'8 now 182 lb frame. For me its time to build from where I left off from.
Now I'm sure that I'll probably get called out at some point for being sexist with what I write above, but I'm not at all in the slightest bit. I'm happy, I love life- man wow what life feels like when I get the flashes of normalcy, when I get the experiences that I lacked for so long. I love all races, kinds, I love being here around all human beings- a species I was legitimately scared to spend time around when I was at my worst for those 7 months. I was so anxious I couldn't look a human in the eye.
Admittedly, life can still be tough at times with symptoms that show while experimenting but they are nowhere near the same galaxy of what I went through last year. During the hard, all I have to do is take a deep breath and think about where I once was and where I am now. It's so damn cool.
I just wrote a bit more above than I would've liked to about myself. I don't want this thread to be about me- I want this thread to be about this website, what we are trying to do here, what happened to us, how you can get better, why you can get better, and above all things just give you all a peace of mind that you CAN get better. I want to do this in layman terms so you can understand this. It can get confusing on this site undoubtedly and that's the case with any type of health website.
It can be hard finding the right plan for you. EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT. That is the largest lesson you may learn on this site. Some things will work for some people, others will work for others. It all depends on your symptoms, oxidation type, mineral content, drug that caused your illness, toxicities, pathogens, and so on. And its not going to be one thing that cures you- it's going to be a collection over TIME that must be strategically used to your advantage. I hope that I can help people get a better understanding of what the best routes to take are for their given situation.
For instance, when I started my holistic healing in August I was able to Skype with a PFS recovery story from Propeciahelp by the name "Braziliandude." I kept asking about individual things he tried over his 4-5 years of PFS recovery and said to me "Its not going to be one thing. Its going to be a collection of things that you really have to figure out." I wanted him to be wrong. I didn't want there to be any pressure on me to make the right decisions. I already had made a horrible one by taking finasteride and now my own decisions are going to reflect whether or not I can get my life back?
Well, the decisions started getting easier for me once this forum came into fruition. And I hope that I can help you make the correct decisions with my work here like I have over these last 7 months (barring that ski jump I attempted LOL.) Admittedly, I have made some other wrong decisions that I would take back if I could but I can't. I do not dwell on these decisions. I do not look back. NEVER LOOK BACK. But I have learned from them.
From here, I'll be following up with some posts I already have in mind such as "My influences on the web/recovery stories to read", "What happened to us? In layman's terms", "My RIFE machine journey", "Manual Pathogen Attacks", and several more ideas. If you have an idea that you'd like to see me tackle to the best of my ability- feel free to shoot me a PM or comment here.
To conclude this- I know many of you are at wits end with your problems and some have been sick for close to a decade or even longer. Just believe- just get up and start doing, start believing. Look at @Admiral - the dude has had PFS for over a decade and just fasted for 21 days. Find something deep inside of you to make this your journey in getting your life back. Find that motivation and just do it.
I'd say I'm only 60% there and man its worth. Sooo worth it. After a 7 year health journey on my own, I can only imagine what 100% feels like and how good that day will be. At 60%, my life is good, but I want it all. I can't wait to get there and you should feel the same exact way. Let's keep on going!
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